I AM NOT READY TO VENTURE INTO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD
By- Hesmel Faznee Faisal
Salam, to my fellow bloggers and Bacalah reader (If there's any, Jose!)
We should not be loathing people who suffer depression. They are considered lucky because of the privilege of having given a “first class” ticket to venture into the world of fantasy. No doubt, some may acted aggressively based on their delusion but nevertheless, it did not dither them from enjoying every moment of it in the world of the unknown.
The typical and orthodox psychiatrists may not agree with what the writer has said, lest assured, it is the least of what we can do, to create peace in our mind.
What the writer is trying to say is; he is suffering from a mild depression, mind you.
He will not be disclosing any details of it, prior to the matter. To make a long story short, this writer has a certain feeling of euthanasia. For those who are not familiar with that term, it means the act of ending ones lives without having gone through either suffering or pain.
Yes, many may argue that taking one’s live voluntarily is prohibited in any teachings of any religion. But as the writer has said earlier, depression can trigger a person into doing things beyond their own control. Among them is the act of committing suicide
Jose, in order to overcome that feeling, the writer is really trying hard to occupy himself with many activities such as reading, writing (For example, scribbling nonsense article such as this!) and travelling. Unfortunately, the writer was unable to do the latter due to the budget restriction and likewise, he chooses to write as another alternative to occupy his mind!
The writer will try to motivate himself. And he is begging the rest of the readers to help him to do so. For those who had came across this piece of writing, kindly leave positive remarks for the writer. With that, it might be able to help and motivate him. Besides praying and reading the holy Quran, some short sentences of nice words would be able to help him to regain back his composure.
Depression can positively be seen as a vehicle to take a person to the world of fantasy. But the risk of it is that he will be either trapped in that world forever or, can be drawn back to the world of reality provided; with the help, support and motivation from people around them, and later can share their experience with the rest.
As for now, the writer is not well prepared to venture into that world. He needs help from his friends and readers of this self-proclaimed blog badly to lend some positive words and help for him to regain back his confidence.
In other words, his “soul” is bleeding. And he is bleeding badly.